I just went through all my posts back to january of 2005...kind of sad to see all the people that have deleted their xangas. I would have to print out every post before I'd be able to delete this thing...all my memories of high school are written down here...kind of sad almost.

I'd love to bring xanga back...i mean really it was so much more interesting to read about people's lives than just see their status updates and what new pics they have. i miss blogging i think.

hmm.

it's amazing how things go through fads.
xanga.
myspace.
facebook.
soon enough something will take facebook's place as well.
each lives it's life.

but there are fads in other parts of life.
fashion.
friends.
relationship.

i have learned a lot about myself in the past months.
it has been as if someone took my life it threw it all up in the air.
and here i am left to pick up the pieces.
i've found some parts but still am searching for the most important parts.
trust will be the last i find because it is hidden the best.
i at least know that much.
faith is slowly revealing itself but hurt still keeps it out of view.
love.
oh love.
love is broken in so many places that it will take much time to piece together.

i just hope it doesn't take too much time.
because time does tick away...

i need a new layout.

love is the pits.

what was i ever thinking to fall in love with a boy so....wrong?